Blogger's Goal.

I have decided blogging is difficult. 

If it's not time that pulls me away, it's fear of rejection.

If it's not having inspiration, it's discouragement.

If it's not having enough followers, it's not having the confidence to write.

It's a constant battle between fingers and keyboard.

It's the same thing with keeping a journal, it's difficult.

I feel like I pick up my blogging and I drop it. Constantly.

I may be the least consistant blogger.

But I have a dillema.

I love to blog.

I love to share my experiences,

my recipes,

my failures,

my pictures, 

my challenges,

my praises,

my favorites,

I love to share.

But when I share these things 

and feel that I don't have an audience to write to I stop.

I  become discouraged and I stop.

I get lazy.

I feel rejected...

and on and on and on.

So I have decided for this year's blogging,

I will write not for an audience but because I love to.

No more posting a link on my facebook.

No more sharing my blog with those I know.

If people find my blog and read through my day

then lucky them and lucky me.

Here is to a new start on my blog.

No need to start a new journey,

but I will continue this journey with a bicycle for two.

And if you didn't know, this bicycle for two made room for three. :)

(I will be introducing the third seat on the bike soon!)

The Happenings #3

You know what I love about my blog?
NO- pressure.

I have absolutely NO-pressure to type a single word. Some days, I take my fingers to the keyboard and realize... this post, I don't want to share. And I just save the draft. Some days, I log on to my blogger account and check the date of my last post and think, "Hmmm, maybe I should post today...? Even a little something." And then I say, hmmmm.... NO-pressure. And then it's days like this... where I have a quiet morning off that I can sit and reflect about the last week. Oh, phenemonenal.

The Happenings #3:

I am currently cuddling: these two. My new puppy (14 weeks old!), Alani and my sweet husband Daniel. The name is EXACTLY not how you would read it. It's pronounced... Al-ugh-knee. Where did we get the name? Short story, it's a family name I love... and the name my parents always wished they would have had for my middle name! She is short and funny, has sharp teeth and claws, she is fierce (Tyra would be proud) and she has a HUGE personality. She is definitley both a little bit of Daniel and I. (Her fierceness comes from me.)

I am making a habit of: going to the gym! I bought my membership on the 16th have almost been everyday! I make time and I love making time. Even though "they say" you begin to see change in yourself at 4 weeks- I ALREADY SEE IT! I have so much more energy. I sleep better. I eat better. And the best thing is: I am competitive with myself and I LOVE IT! I will be going today too!

Trying to wake up on an early morning to work out!

I am drooling over: vegetables. (hahahahahhahaha) I know, weird. Who drools over veggies. But seriously, brussel sprouts, brocolli, green beans... ughhhh. Yum. EEOV and garlic. I cannot wait for the farmer's markets and produce stands! HURRY UP SPRING!

My favorite accessories to wear daily: my new Michael Kors handbag and clutch. If you didn't know I work at MK (coming on a year fairly quickly) and have yet to buy myself a bag! Daniel, spoiled me with a sweet gift after Christmas of my favorite bag- the Astor Satchel and I added a sweet little clutch to hold my cards, cash, phone and keys. I love it! Thanks baby!

I am struggling with: what comes out of my mouth. It has always been a problem, caused some conflict and it's time to really become disciplined in my "thinking before speaking."

I am watching: Heroes. Oh. MY. Goooodness. Daniel and I cannot get away from it! Addicting. :)

We want to: buy a newer car, move into a home that has a 2nd bedroom, and make more time on my weekends off to road trip and adventure.

I'm so exicted: to plan my trip to CA (still figuring out details) for Emma's 1st birthday and dedication. Ahhhhh. She is getting so old! :(

I am enjoying: reading daily in the "Jesus Calling" mini devotion and being in the Word... rocking to the Gungor Pandora station in my car commuting to work, and as of 10 minutes ago... cuddling with my puppy as she sleeps on me.

Rager and Changer.

Last night, it finally happened for me. It's been a moment I have been anxiously awaiting and needing.

I had NO idea where to start in order to get to there but I found out where to start.

This post obviously needs a bit more detail. 

It began with frustrations with life in our home.

Frustrations that could have been handled normally, BUT wasn't.

(It's nothing life threatening, or devastating... but in a marriage, difficult. Details are not necessary.)

It turned me into a rager. Angry. Frustrations were irritations and annoyances.

These irritations and annoyances turned into constant complaints.

These constant complaints turned me into a person of independence.
And independence in a marriage does two things: hinders a union with your spouse and your Lord.

Ya, that's where I was.

A few weeks ago, my sweet friend 3,000+ miles away from me, lent me an ear as I tried to just casually talk about life at home. Being "independent and prideful" I tried to keep it very surface. I didn't want her to ask questions. I didn't want her to care. I also didn't want anyone to know of our flaws as a couple. (Why? I have no idea. Every marriage has their seasons of difficulties.)

But finally, after sometime I just started to be vulnerable. I told her my "secrets" at home (which again, please don't freak out... it's just clashing in a home). With sympathy and sisterhood, she says, "It's no fair I can't be with you to give you a hug... I am sorry I live so far away." (This is definitely a paraphrase, but it was a long those lines). As I am sobbing on the phone full of frustrating feelings and anger, she leaves me saying she is ALWAYS praying for me... and in the moment, I know that was what I needed to hear. But I wanted something to heal now. Change now. I want the next thing to be what it should be and how it should go. I want it now. After a few hours of a quiet home, time, and space... reading some workbooks my husband and I worked on as fiances, I realized it. It finally clicked. One reason why our union was hindered was because I was holding back forgiving him and holding on to frustrations. And when my union with my husband is hindered because of my sin, so is my union with my Lord. 

After that realization, I thought this will change EVERYTHING. So, I continued my routine of being in the Word as much as I could remember daily. And a book that I had been waiting for months to read finally came into the library, "One Thousand Gifts." (I will be doing a book review... so look out for it.) I began reading it.... and continued to invest more and more time into it. The next thing I knew, I was in love with the book. Highly encouraged by the book. And I thought, this will change EVERYTHING.

Then, my freaking out began. Again. Anxious. Stressed. Tired. Insecure. Upset. Frustrated, I freaked out. Things were not going MY way, the way I thought things should go. The independence never left. The control just dug deeper within me. My husband, who gently handles these freak outs, just loved on me... with soft words and voice. He listened... as I am freaking out. Blaming him for everything, things that couldn't be changed now but I wanted them too. Every little thing that wasn't done in my timing and my way, frustrated me. One night all I remember him saying is, "It won't just change now, when you want. It just won't. It takes time." After that, is a blur of tears and bottled up anger.

With feelings of embarrassment for my behavior and angry heart, I felt stuck and didn't know where to start. Because I was reading that "One Thousand Gifts" which is about thankfulness, I thought... maybe it will start with gratitude. After a few attempts within a couple days... nothing changed. My final thought was, I can't change. After a frustrating situation last night, Daniel just came up and hugged me... kissed me and told me over and over and over and over again "I love you." I looked at him and said, "Why can't things just work out for me? Why can't it just go the way I want it to." This was after yet another freak out on the phone and my embarrassment and desire to change.

We made it to church last night and was blessed with fellowship with friends. So good. So needed. I was tired but glad we made it for the social. We were blessed with an amazing worship set by The New Divide, a band who is traveling all over the world to serve the Lord and play. The night ended with the Lord totally using their set as a way to reveal a the dirt and filth in my heart. With tears of guilt and frustration with myself I sang: 

Your love is extravagant

Your friendship, it is intimate

I feel like moving to the rhythm of Your grace 

Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place

Your love is extravagant

Spread wide in the arms of Christ is the love that covers sin

No greater love have I ever known You considered me a friend

Capture my heart again

The thoughts of thankfulness for unfailing love flood my mind. Reminding me that His love covers all. His never ending love will capture my heart. And that this is will be the safest, most committed friendship I will ever have. He wants to know my flaws. Then the words quietly fell from my lips as tears roll down my cheek:

All this pain

I wonder if I’ll ever find my way

I wonder if my life could really change at all

All this earth

Could all that is lost ever be found

Could a garden come up from this ground at all

All around

I am thinking, I have tried GOD. What else can I do but fight the desire? What else GOD? I can't change. I continued singing: 

Hope is springing up from this old ground

Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of the dust

You make beautiful things

You make beautiful things out of us

The reminder of hope out of my chaos, beauty out of the dirt in my life, growth will come. Change will appear. Yes, I can change.

The Lord has promised good to me.

His word my hope secures.

He will my shield and portion be,

As long as life endures.

And how can my night not end any sweeter. Words of encouragement and love from my Savior sang in front of me and out of my mouth hand in hand with my husband. Both unions squashing any kind of hindrance .. and just in awe of His timing, His tools, and His love for me.

Change comes through Him. I think the struggle is always how to rely on Him... but like I said earlier  "I had NO idea where to start in order to get there but I found out where to start." And it's in Him. 

Here is to another season in life, beginning with in Him and ending in relying on Him.

Happy writing my friends!

The Happenings #2

OH MY GOODNESS, THIS NEVER POSTED- HOW LAME! Well, here it is a month late. ;)

Welcome back to:
The Happenings. #2

What's happening lately? What's going to happen? What do I want to happen?
It's all here.
Starting.... now. :)

I am recently obsessed with: my Hot Fudge Brownie Wood Wick candle, oh and this kid below. It snap, crackles, and pops while filling my home with the sweet, rich smell of gooey fudge brownies. It's delicious. And the smell helps me from snacking on all the things I wish I could.

I wait a few weeks to watch: my favorite show... 30 Rock. I don't have a DVR box and I have also seen ALL OF THE SEASONS of 30 Rock besides the recent. So... I wait a couple weeks. Wait for a build up of episodes, and then splurge. Thank you Liz Lemon, you crack me up.

I am currently working on: making my home full of Christmas Cheer. My goal is to make all of my decorations... and as much as possible, not buy any! I am making a "tis the season" banner as of last night. I will post pictures later.

My favorite Pandora station: is definitely Jack Johnson (Holiday). Seriously, how much better can that station get? I. do. not. know. But I am rockin' around the Christmas tree with some of my favorite artist... from Jack himself, to Sufjan Stevens... all the way to the Eagles! YES, yes, yes... continuing the joy of this season with this station.

I found a delicious meal I love: Pesto Bean Soup. I am not sure exactly how I found this recipe, but the Food Network warmed my heart with this delicious soup. I even added my own spin to it.... fresh cut tomatoes or a can of undrained tomatoes. Delicious. I added some shredded chicken for more substance... but you can definitely add some chicken sausage, yummmy! All in all, this is PERFECT with this bread recipe that I stick to, for EVERY soup. :)

The only thing I made for Thanksgiving was: Homemade Mixed Berry Pie with the FLAKIEST crust in the world. I mean, like honestly, I could eat that happily EVERY night. If you have never made a pie, or a pie crust, start with the one I posted. YOU will never change recipes. I looked like a professional during Thanksgiving with my in-laws... and it was my first crust on my own! :) I challenge you! (P.S. if you need help with making the filling.... email me!)

The best part of my week has been: playing 'Peek-a-Boo' with my niece  Emma-E. My day began watching a video of her officially crawling and next she is cracking up that I am playing 'Peek-a-Boo!' And of course, hanging out with my sister for a few hours via skype.

I am looking forward to: future plans with my husband. We keep talking, looking, dreaming of opportunities. We will see.

I want to: begin waking up earlier to do the things I need to make time for. Working the hours I do, I don't always have a lot of time before or after work to do it.

I want to make time for: praying daily, writing down what I am thankful for, and allowing God's Word to transform me. Also, I want to make time to be exercising daily. I am looking for a way to get a gym membership or a bigger place to live to work out. Either way, it's gotta start soon. I'm not 18 years old anymore. Blah.

Anyways, this is what's happening.
This is my life.
Back to 30 Rock.
And possibly my book I am reading: 'One Thousand Gifts,'
finishing my 'tis the season' banner,
and begin decorating for my favorite season. :)

Happy Writing Friends!

- Jamie

Falalalalala....

I am sitting here,
on my couch,
eating Almond Joy Pieces (I got 50% off),
drinking some glasses of Apothotic Red Wine,
and listening to Jack Johnson's Holiday station on Pandora.

I am sitting here enjoying my two day "mini vacation."
This "vacation" will be filled with Christmas greetings into our home,
meal planning, cleaning, gift making, and of course... movies.

Hopefully, our home will smell of brownie candles and a hint of cinnamon.
Hopefully, our home will feel more sweet and warm.
Hopefully, I will think of "Christmas Cheers" as retail work during this time sucks the life out of you.
Hopefully, we will see homemade decor, stockings, a tree and lights in our home.
I hope the Christmas Spirit fills this home and that this month, my husband and I, will be full of joy.

I hope. I hope. I hope.
Sometimes, I work for this "hope" I have in things.
Sometimes, I wish for these "hopes" to happen.
Sometimes, most of the time, I rely on my petty little self to accomplish my "hopes."

But really, my heart, yearns to be reminded of this season- the birth of Christ.
My heart years for the remembrance and for the joyful hope I actually have.
My heart has been in preparation since last month, the month of thankfulness.
Remembering what I am thankful for, big or small, paralyzing and petrifying, or an unexpected blessing, 
will remind me of the joyful hope I have.
Joyfully remembering all things I am thankful for is how to live out your salvation.
Part of my salvation is knowing the hope I have-
Which was made physical evidence this season.
Being thankful for all Christ is and does will remind me of the hopeful joy I have in my salvation.

So with that, yes-
'tis the season to be jolly.

Let's be JOYFULLY thankful this Christmas season.

He Is Here

I have been trying to find this video to share with you guys...
He Is Here...by Gungor.
Poet by Amena Brown.

I heard this on my way to work one day.
I love it.

 He is Here

“He is here. In this room. In your heart. 

He is near. Nearer than breath. Heartbeats.

Nearer than you are to you.

Nearer than second chance or next opportunity.

Closer than tonight or yesterday.

He is Real. Realer than touch.

See. Hear. Smell or Taste.

Realer than reality. He is our reality.

Realer than Joy. Pain. Sorrow.

Realer than the Love of being in Love.

He is present. Like time. Space. Wind. Silence. Night.

He is waiting. Like Creation.

Like words on the tip of tongue.

Like songs that have yet to be sung.

He is Beauty. Oranges. Blues. Every Hue. Every shade.

Sunset and Sunrise. Whisper His Name.

He is Holy.

Different. Made Human. Became Human. Forgave Human. 

He is Spirit.

He cannot be touched. Explains like,

Sweet seconds of prayers like,

Grandmother on knees. Wood floor Bare.

He is Son. Distinctly three. Distinctly one.

The only one. The only wise. The only resurrector of lives. 

He is King.

No earthly throne can house.

No amount of elegant words can espouse.

He is Moments and Voice. Power of Choice.

And Word. And Deed. And Fruit. And Seed.

Pierced Side. Nailed hands. Nailed feet.

Innocent wounds that bleed.

He is Believe and Trust.

He is Enough. He is All.

He is Call and Purpose.

Everything that we can sacrifice. He is worth it and more.

Much More. Our good deeds are mere pennies.

We’ll never even the score.

He is Behold. And Wowed.

He is Who. What. When. Why. How.

He Puts on the Show. He is the one we come to see.

He is Souls Cry and sinners plea. He is the epitome.

He is the One know one can light a candle to

or come within a million foot pole of.

He is Above.

He is a Fathers Love.

He is maker of ways.

Of Earth. And Wind. Ancient of Days.

Has No Fear.

Have No Fear.

God is Here.”

the happenings...

Before this very special blog, I had another blog... called the Hoeppner's Happenings.

Most of the time, it was about my own happenings... 

and it mostly reflected my first few months of being a married woman. 

Instead of a blog, I decided I would keep a steady posts of "the happenings." 

"The Happenings" will include various things such as:

- things to come,

- things that have already happened,

- some of my favorites (recipes, DIY projects, etc),

- book review/recommendation,

- maybe a funny picture or video.

I just think that sometimes it's nice to read a post to get to know the author... me. :) Maybe get to know me on a more "friendship" basis...ya know? Not EVERYTHING has to be this AMAZING life experience and heavy thought. 

So with that, let's begin my first "The Happenings..."

The best weekly purchase I have been making: farmers market bouquets... you see why?

My favorite recipe for Fall: I just recently found this amazing soup called, "Autumn Sausage Corn Soup."  It is absolutely amazing... instead of getting frozen like it called for, I grabbed FRESH Snohomish Farm corn. It's so cheap right now because of the wonderful season we are having... I am talking 5/$1!! :) It's an easy recipe... and if you make this delicious/easy homemade bread... whoever you make this meal for will be satisfied, promise. (Daniel was very happy, and asking me for more!)

Are you looking to read this Fall? You should try the Ted Dekker Black, Red, White and Green "Circle Books." Each book connects to one another... and I have read the first two (Black and Red) and am waiting for someone to return White to the library! It's an extremely easy read, intriguing, and right now I am hanging off a cliff! The beauty of these books is the author used God's Word (from Genesis through Revelation) as the foundation of the book. The characters, the plots, everything connects as a metaphor to the story God created and continues to create! It's really fun to read and make the connections! Give them a try!

Just finished two Autumn decor "DIYs"... and they are adorable! They definitely have the "handcrafted" look to them that I love so much! I used some leftover twine (my favorite) and fabric that I have had hoarded in my garage for a "Fall Banner." My other little decor I made was made from recycled beer bottles (pumpkin ale, yummmmmy). Each bottle has a different letter that spells out to "thanks." Right now, I have flowers drying from one of my farmers market bouquets to put into the bottles... a sweet touch for the Autumn season. 

A few things I am preparing for: my sister/niece/and momma bear coming to visit next weekend.... I am going to do some extra cleaning and prepping of food before they come so we can TOTALLY JUST HANG OUT. I have also prepared for this trip by buying my sweet niece a million outfits from Carter's. HOLY cow, so many cute outfits... everything I bought for the cold season (under $8)! And also preparing for Daniel's birthday, December 6th. I am planning something special and really hoping it will work out... and then Christmas. Figuring out plans to go to Cali to visit our families and saving now for gifts! Ahhhh! 

I GET TO SEE THEM SO SOON!

This is just a few things that are "happening." I won't be making this a weekly obligation... I would like to do it as often as I need to. :)

What is happening in your life?

Happy Writing Friends!!

Jamie

a post for fall

One of my favorite things to do on my day off is blog. Why?
Because I don't have to rush. I don't have a time limit. I don't have have anything hindering me from creativity.
I can write. I can enjoy. I can reminisce.

As of now, I have my curtains open as the blue skies and warm sunshine hits my face...
even though I know it's windy chilly day in my town.
This morning driving home, I watched piles and piles of leaves fall from the trees and swirl around my car.
This is one of the best parts of Fall, the artist nature gets to be.

I woke up excited for a new day, and a day off.
I was ready to exercise and start my day. Today, I knew would be a great day.
As I try to crawl out of the covers Daniel encourages me to go outside and run.

The reason why I bring up and italicize the last sentence is because my husband encourages.
Yesterday, I was getting upset that every time I attempt to workout, I somehow find an excuse.
Some, are legitimate. Some, are not. The last two days, legit. Major migraine.
But discouraged, I decided that I needed something to help me exercise- vitamins.
As I mentioned it to Daniel, he replied with...
"How about before we go the vitamin route, I help you exercise every day. Let me be your helper."
Of course, a bit weary of what this would be mean, I agreed and thanked him... but it turns out it's better than I thought.

As I was trying to crawl out of my bed and Daniel encouraged me... he continued with:
"How about I run with you today?"....ughhh really? :)
My husband, woke up an hour early just to run with me... to be my helper.
Sometimes, I think I forget that not only am I my husband's helper, but he is mine as well.
It's okay to ask my husband for help.

So, with two days of exercise... I feel encouraged. I am finding better reasons to exercise rather than skinny.
Thank you God. It's such a battle I feel so many struggle with. This season, I am struggling.
I had the opportunity to be with my husband this morning and watch him encourage me.
I was able to make him breakfast and express how much I appreciate him.
I sipped on a favorite drink, Earl Grey Tea Latte, and read my book at the library.
The Normal Christian Life by Watchman Nee... a beautiful reminder with so many new Truths for me.
I spent two hours there... oh my goodness. And during my two hours, I was able to encourage.
I encouraged a few friends going through some tough circumstances (illness, loneliness, friendships, etc).
And through encouraging others, I was also encouraged.

God has made OUR HEARTS HIS DWELLING PLACE, His temple.

Our Father and His Son are present daily, experiencing the highs and lows of our days.

They are asking us to RELY on THEIR strength.

Even though unwanted circumstances are present, it can't compare to the presences of our Lord.

Believers, our lives are tools. They are stories of His grace and a reflection of His power in one's life.

And was I so thankful to be reminded of this today. And to learn how valuable I am to Him.


After more encouraging moments, I was able to FaceTime my sister and niece for over an hour at home!
OVER AN HOUR. Little Emma-E stole my heart for the whole hour.
She giggled and smiled. She talked. She made faces. She attempted to roll. She played with her toys.
She tried to grab my face. She made me feel like the best Tee-Tee so many miles away.
Again, feeling encouraged. Gosh I miss my Esmeyer Family. :)

My niece, Emma-E. :)

My sister Rachel (left) & myself. :)

BTW, don't my niece and I look alike???

How is your day going? Do you need encouragement? Need to chat? Shoot me with an email! :)

mrsjhoeppner@gmail.com

Happy Writing Friends! 

Jamie

It's Fall!

I am so glad that I made time to blog last night.
Actually, Daniel (my husband) gave me that opportunity last night. :)
Before he left work he called to tell me not to touch a thing. Unfortunately, I had already cleaned the house. Then he told me not to cook dinner. Fortunately, I had not touched a piece of food.

So, I went outside on my porch.... lit the fire pit and grabbed my laptop with my blanket.
I had time to e-mail, to blog about the things that make me happy when I am down, and finish my book.
I was able to enjoy the fire and some quiet time by myself. I plugged my phone in, turned on my Pandora to The Civil Wars, and relaxed.

When he came home last night he continued to tell me how much he appreciates me. And he wanted me to understand that he sees how hard I work- as a domestic wife and a working wife. He gave me a sweet gift of appreciation and dinner at home.

He cracks me up.
He was so excited about his "creation" which was delicious, an omelet bacon tortilla pizza.
We even had the opportunity to sit together by the fire, eat dinner and talk. Sweet moments.
It's so great being married. :)

And today, it's going to be a relaxing day for me. If it doesn't rain later today... I will go to the Farmer's Market. But before the market, I want to spend some time sipping on a tea latter and reading books at the library. And later, make Autumn Corn Soup. Yum.

What are you doing today?? Is it beginning to look like Fall where you live? It's Fall here! :)

Here's a yummy drink to try! :) Coconut Almond milk with melted Nutella... warm it up together in a small sauce pan on the stove!! :) It takes 5 minutes!

Happy Writing Friends,

Jamie

Series: 5 Things

It's embarrassing to say... but my last publish was on September 13th. A bit disappointed.
I told myself that I would not be obligated to write constantly on this blog, so I shouldn't have the feelings I do. But, I do.

I won't apologize for a busy month, or for lack of interest due to the amount of craziness... BUT I will make up for this by saying, if you are reading this post today- thank you. I appreciate your NOT LOSS of interest. It's encouraging.

Since it's been so long, I decided I would link up with my good friend Cara. On Wednesdays, she links up with another blogger for a series called:

The theme this week?
5 things that make me happy when I am down....

1. Comfort from my husband- this could be cuddling me, playing with my hands, just holding me, hugging me, letting me cry on him, getting a sweet text... something to remind me that I have an amazing gift, my husband. And of my family.... A phone call or text from my family. Living in different states makes it a bit difficult to have a hug or a coffee date. So when they tell me how much they love me and miss me via text or phone call.... it can make me happy when I am down. They just make me down right smile.

2. My Emma-E. My niece. She gets her own category. Literally my heart has flipped upside down since she was born. It's such a different kind of love. But looking at her recent photos/videos... makes me happy. And to hear how much she is loved by my family and especially my husband can't hold back my smile. The joy of being Tee-Tee. :)

3. A pen in my hand and a notebook/pad. This may sound ridiculous, but sometimes just having a pen in my hand and a notebook next to me changes my day. I may not even write anything or draw a line, but I think it's that I am giving myself an opportunity to slow down and write if I need too. Literally, sometimes I will write ONE word and that's it. But for some reason, it makes me happy.

4. Reading a book outside on a blanket in the sunshine. This is probably a favorite hobby of mine. The tan I could get, the story I can get stuck in, the cushion of the blanket, and usually a cold beverage to cool me down brings me happiness. Nothing. Better. Than. This. Unless my sister or momma bear were with me. :)

5. BLASTING music as I do nothing. Not think. Not eat. No dream. Just be. Just be still. I am a homebody, can be extremely lazy and I definitely know how to relax... so when I get that time too- I do. And this makes my day a million times better. Especially with some candles, pillow, and a snugly blanket on a carpeted floor. :)

What about you? What makes you happy "when skies are gray" in your life?? :)

Happy Writing Friends,

Jamie

Snohomish, Wa

Hey everyone!!! Check out:

 http://maryinmarriedland.blogspot.com/2012/09/city-in-5-snohomish-washington.html ...! 

This is Mary's Blog where she is featuring other fellow bloggers and their town!!! I happened to be apart of this week!! My city of Snohomish in 5 photos!!! :) :) :)

Dear August and September,

I have been excited to write to my dearest months of August and September. I have been awaiting, so anxiously! And now I cannot believe it is already here! So let's begin here:

Dear August,
What happened? Where did you go? What did I even finish or try this month? Well, I guess I can begin with.... you gave me much needed time with my family during camping. It was a blast! My baby Emma-E was getting so BIG! She was giggling and smiling! She was staring and observing! I think she even began to recognize her "tee-tee jay." (hahahaha) She is the best! You gave me a terrific road trip with my husband and a challenging/exciting/memorable bicycle ride around Lake Tahoe with him as well! August, I began my training as manager at Michael Kors and that meant pay raise/benefits- thank you! I had an amazing week "brother-sitting" with the most amazing husband and brothers! I had such a blast hanging out with my brothers (in-law) and I can't wait to see them again! You taught me about "desired disciplines" rather than habits! You taught me how to enjoy being in the Word again. You taught me to prioritize a bit more! And you are teaching me how to become a more consistent blogger and a better friend! August, you were full of joy! You were full of new perspectives! You were full of encouragement! Thank you for an amazing month! I look forward to so much more! 

But Dear September,
YOU ARE ALREADY KILLING ME, thanks to Labor Day and retail work... BUT you are filled with some great things: my one year, my in-laws anniversary, my MIL's birthday, second month of being a manager at work, a trip/vaca some where and some really awesome planned blogs! You have already blessed me with an amazing giveaway from Cara's blog... and last month August blessed me with a sweet gift from Francesca's blog as well! Awesome month of winning, call me winner. ;) September, I hope to spend some more time outside: cycling, running, walking, reading, drinking, talking, and just being outside. I hope to be in the Word, enjoying it. I hope to be encouraged by my friendships and encourage my friends! I desire to talk to my family more... and send more gifts their way! I desire to buy Emma-E a whole new 6 months old wardrobe, or at least try to add to it! ;) I LOOK FORWARD TO CELEBRATING ONE YEAR with my AMAZING HUSBAND, Daniel Richard. Thank you for an amazing month and I am so excited for what September will bring! I hope this month is provided with many more summers days, lots of time of prayer, and time for Daniel and I to reminisce on our first year together!! I am not going to set myself a list of goals to get disappointed about, but I do have some "desired disciplines" I would like to practice- praying/gifting for/to my husband. September, I look forward to the things you have to bring! 

Happy Writing Friends,

Jamie

PS. here is my favorite pic I took this week:

73 miles, 6 hours, and 2 bikes!

Do you remember this post a couple weeks ago about all the different ideas I wanted to write about in a month? Well, the month is almost over from when I started. And I have only done ONE IDEA. Which is fine, no pressure for me. But, I would have liked to cover all of these beautiful topics:

It's been one year, now what?
73 miles, 6 hours, and 2 bikes!
The struggles of a working domestic wife.
Am I comparing or compromising?
Photo Challenge Series: City in 5 Photos (on the 13th will be posted!)
Remaining me in my marriage without losing him!

So far, I did the last one. It is probably one of the most vulnerable, interesting and helpful blogs for myself. Those of you who read it, thanks. Those of you who learned from it, praise God. He is the one who brought me through this experience and challenged me to look at it simply and share it with others. :)

But today, I want to talk about "73 miles, 6 hours, and 2 bikes!" YES! Daniel and I did this! My husband and I finished this... and guess what??? All with a smile on our faces at the finish line. :)

At the end of July, we went camping with my family. Here is the post about it. :) ONE OF THE BEST camping trips I have ever been on with my family, especially with new baby Emma-Elizabeth with us! I had been "cycling" for about 6 months... Daniel says I am a natural. He challenged me to ride around Lake Tahoe with him in one day. And with that, the challenge began!

The day before we headed out on our first big ride together, we decided to test the route a little bit with an hour ride. With lots of steep steep mountains, absolutely beautiful scenery and a cranky attitude from me... we were challenged on this 14 mile trip.

We finally got back to the camp site after I threw a fit, yes... I am 22 years old and I still throw fits. Cute, huh? Later that night, after I got over myself and before we went to bed, I made sure to have a "pep talk" with Daniel before we woke up at 6am for our BIG ride.

See if you know Daniel at all, like I do, you should know that he is one of the MOST PATIENT people I have ever met in my life. We are so opposite in this area of life. He is a thinker... and NEVER lashes out. He listens and sometimes never even says a word in defense. And for the longest time, I thought when he wasn't "fighting" me... he was running away from the problem. But no, Daniel is patient, loving, thoughtful, not careless with his words, and he can be an amazing encourager and terrific challenger. God totally uses this man as a tool to grow me and mold me into the "beautiful thing" He wants me to be. (At our wedding, during the "union" part of the ceremony... we had our parents pray for us rather than taking communion, or washing each other's feet, or mixing sand. And we had the song by Gungor "Beautiful Things" playing in the background. So sweet.)

After letting Daniel know how "I work," we slept so soundly and woke up ready. He had prepared for this day WAY before we left for camping... packing us all the small goodies for our ride, getting us "energy" water, and for me- new cycling shorts that we more than necessary and COMFY! After, I believe, a banana we began our journey with excitement.

The first 28 miles were some of the hardest. I remember thinking, ARE WE HALF WAY DONE? And Daniel answered my thoughts with no, but we are a THIRD done! He kept positive and for the most part I kept quite, otherwise the long and painful ride would have been even more long and painful due to the not so sweet words that would come out of my mouth. As we were almost at about 35 miles, Daniel asked if I need a break and I challenged us to continue on until we hit 50 miles! So we trekked on and pushed up those mountains! I ALMOST GAVE UP! It was less than  5 miles to 50 and I was pushing and pulling the petal as much as I could... I was literally going like 2 miles per hour, but I couldn't stop. As I am grunting and hurting, Daniel encourages me with "milestones" and "you're so hot babe" comments. I am pretty sure it was the "you're so hot" comments that really got me through those awful 5 miles.

WE FINALLY HIT 50 MILES! WE HIT 50! I couldn't be any more excited! The sun was finally getting hot, and so was my water! My legs were getting jelly like and my head was sweating! I wanted to rip of all my clothes and ride naked, but no THANK YOU- not a lovely look on me. ;) After about a 30 minute rest because I was so tired, Daniel had us move on!! The last 25 miles were so much better. There was only a little bit of climbing but a lot more down hill and flat areas- thank God! I "soaked in" the downhill rides and I continued to petal on the flats. 

We made it to "the strip" where it was quite busy but was the most exciting part! Knowing that I hit "the strip" meant that I was almost finished and EVERYTHING was flat! NO MORE HILLS! NO MORE MOUNTAINS, just flat and bumpy roads. The last ten miles were dreadful. My legs hurt so bad. I couldn't feel the "in between" of my legs (haha), and my feet were feeling numb. I had a cramp in my side and was almost in tears. But once again, I can hear Daniel encouraging me... telling me how cool of a wife I am, how hot I was, and how proud he was of me.

It was time. Time to meet everyone at the campsite! It was TIME TO GO THROUGH THE FINISH LINE! I know this sounds lame but as we entered into the campgrounds on our way to our specific campsite, I had watery eyes. I was so proud of us. We made all 73 miles of cycling mountains and roads with smiles, laughs, jokes, and encouragement! We made it together! We finished EVERY mile together. He pushed me through it! I wouldn't have finished without him, at least in a day! I would have TOTALLY given up! As we got to the campsite, our family was there to cheer us on!! :)

Daniel, he is the most amazing husband. I learn so much from him... and I learned so much especially on our ride together. One thing I hadn't mentioned yet was how he led the ride, behind. Yes, he rode behind me the whole time. He knew how discouraging it was for me to "try and catch up" and he let me be in the front for 6 hours! This just showed me how much he really did listen to me the night before. And how much he really did care about how I felt and me finishing. He is so loving. And he can be so selfless. He just amazes me. Thanks baby. :)

Yes, this blog is a bit of a brag about not only the biggest ride I have ever finished, but how ABSOLUTELY amazing my husband is and how much I have to learn from him! I love you Daniel. Thanks for being my husband. :)

Thanks for reading today!! Happy writing to you my friends! For those of you married, I challenge you to take an adventure with your husband!! There is so much that I didn't even get to share with you that I loved and learned about on this ride!!! Do it and let me know the plan!! :)